I think I’m designed for the country but I’m stuck in a town and some days it suffocates me.

All I want is to hear natural sounds, smell the air around me as it should be. I love nothing more than being in the garden listening – it’s a whole different world and I yearn to be a part of it.

I don’t need to smell your barbeque or hear you kids screaming for no reason. I find myself getting irritated at people, by people!

I’ve accepted I’m not a socialite and I’m at peace with that, though I think to others it comes across as aloof (or, as I’ve been told in the past: stuck up). Nothing could be further from the truth. I just struggle with other peoples’ noise. Sometimes I get up extra early just so I can sit in the house while it’s extra quiet.

Where we live, we are surrounded by people. With people come children, dogs, cars, music, bonfires and don’t forget the strimmers! It all irritates me at the moment.

I would give anything to be able to move us out into the country – to be secluded. They say seclusion isn’t good for you. I say ‘they’ are wrong if it’s in your nature. I keep getting told we’re social animals, well, I tried that and I didn’t like it.

What I think is bad for you is being forced to put up with people you don’t know, to have to put up with their noise and lifestyle. I’ve always been more comfortable around animals than people and now my comfort zone includes plants too. That and my family are all I need and if that makes me anti-social, secluded or any other negative label for that side of me – well, I’m ok with that.

I realise this isn’t the most positive of posts I’ve ever done but I think I’m getting anxious – we will be getting new neighbours soon and I’m dreading it, so I’m withdrawing into my own wee world! I will pop out of it from time to time to keep posting though – still got to finish that polytunnel and hopefully be able to show you it fully covered and stocked….fingers crossed!