Ups and downs continue on a daily basis

I have half a mind to just do bullet points to describe this week. It would look something like this:

• Weather has been crap all week
• Dearest Hubby had yet another appointment at the GP
• Son had yet another appointment with the orthodontist
• The car is still leaking oil
• My leg issues are flaring up and I can’t see a GP for 3 weeks

And on and on it would go. Just one long list of moans and complaints. However, all of these things have been taken on and dealt with without audible complaining from me as I don’t want to add to Hubby’s stress. There is something though which I found very very difficult to deal with and it happened today.

As I’ve said before, our car is leaking oil on a constant basis and I’ve been on the hunt for a new one for months now. I am taking my time because our budget is very tight and I need something reliable so I can take my husband to his radiotherapy treatment for his prostate cancer, in a couple of months. He will be going every day for a month and I’m not convinced our car will make it.

I also need a car with quite a lot of space. I have a lot of gardening ‘stuff’ and often pick up more ‘stuff’ for the garden or to take to the dump etc, so I need a lot of space. We did go to see a car a while back but it was just too small even though it fit the budget. If our son wasn’t comfortable, there was no way husband would be.

So I went online to look at what was available locally today and to my surprise, I saw something which I thought would be perfect for us. I mean perfect. It was within budget, good mileage, loads of space, didn’t need a thing done and something which I found a little spooky – the last 3 letters of the registration were exactly the same as what we have now! Surely that was a sign? I checked the ad and saw it had only been live for 9 minutes, so I sent a message.

I waited.

I waited some more.

Then I got a reply and I was so excited because Dearest Son and I had looked online and found that it could be changed into a great little camper for weekends away, using a kit – which the person was also selling. So when I saw I had a message, my heart skipped a little.

Soon however, all hopes were dashed.

I was THIRD in the queue and someone was going to see it later in the day but she’d let me know later if it was still available. I got a message later saying the car had been sold.

I’ll admit, I was so gutted, I went somewhere and had a quiet cry. That car would have solved all my problems regarding transport. And now, I’m back to square one, worrying about how I’m going to get back and forth every day while the car leaks away every trip. This is on top of other issues we’re dealing with regarding the earlier GP trip.

I’m trying to stay positive. I’m trying to keep up with the house, the home schooling, the everything but this really got me down today. I’d love to end on a happier note but I’ll be real honest with you, I’m just not feeling it. Oh yes, the vacuum hoover hose broke again.