You’d think I’d have learned by now, but no, I still have to torture myself apparently by trying to ‘fix things’ without really knowing what I’m doing.

To celebrate finally getting the domain for the blog all sorted and having ‘my very own website’, I decided a re-vamp of the front page was needed, at the very least. As it’s been a while since I did any of the setting up of pages and moving things around, I thought it would be a good idea to watch a few videos to remind myself of the basic workings of page designing. Then off I set, down the rabbit hole of blocks, groups, widgets, links and the like. The short version is this: I didn’t really know what I was doing and managed to wipe my page back to the original ‘theme’ design, complete with smiling lady and her bio. Panic ensued. I found my original ‘about’ page somehow (don’t ask me how), but I couldn’t get it linked into this new page with the smiling lady.

It should be obvious to anyone by now that although I enjoy the writing and creative side of blogging, the technical side is beyond me pretty much. I can see why ‘website developer’ is a job.

Some time later, after going through many themes, colours, frantic mopping of brow at the thought of having to start all over again, I ended up with something I was pretty happy with. A few tweaks still needed but at least all my pages were showing up!

The other ‘issue’ I’ve encountered recently is a bit more personal but still online related. I like to try new things, whether it’s in video format, poetry or blogging and for Halloween, I decided I would push my creative boats out, so to speak. For a long time, I didn’t use my voice on my youtube videos but since starting a podcast I’ve tried it a couple of times. My latest creative ventures were to read my 2 Halloween poems, (one more of a light hearted take and the other a bit darker), I added a little music and video and put it up on my channel. I admit, they took me ages to make as you can imagine, given the technical whizz that I am but a bit of fun I thought, for the time of year. Now, I realise poetry isn’t for everyone and I’ve done a few ‘visual poems’ as I call them before, so I thought it would be a reasonable thing to try. I was wrong apparently. I don’t know if it’s my accent – Scottish, my voice – sounds higher pitched than I hear, or just the content in general, but I’ve managed to lose 2 subscribers on both Youtube and the blog each since uploading them!

So, I have had to ask myself a few questions: Do I stop trying to be creative in an attempt to hold onto the SIX Youtube subscribers I have left (pathetic, I know), do I stick to dog videos or do I just give up completely? The last one isn’t going to happen as I actually enjoy the process of making the videos. I did consider just moving over to Rumble and seeing if that would do better. In fact the process of moving my videos over was started some time ago but apparently it can take weeks. At the time of writing this post, I’m of a mind only to put up the ‘visual poetry’ on rumble (if at all) and stick to the more ‘fluffy’ content for youtube – but I am open to any advice other, more professional ‘content creators’ may have, but please, keep it simple!

All this did make me wonder, how do you feel when you lose subscribers, either from your blog or elsewhere on the interweb? Assuming it’s not just me it’s happened too! Do you shrug it off easily or is there just a tiny bit of you that takes it personally?